why do i feel , i am not ready for my future ?

study? medic plz. ke engin eh?
job ? doc lah kn?
money? bnyk2
shopping ? PASTII !
houses&cars&jewelleries ? sape nak belanja aku ?meh beliikn !
marriage ? erm
kids ? hahaha. suka hati nk berapa lah ((:
akhirat ? verry not sure. -.-'

i dont have any specific plans yet, and it freaks me out when people started receiving calls from JPA and MARA.and i am waiting , waiting , and still waiting .

and suddenly i miss my school days like hell much ! we were young , and there was NO REASON to be worried that much , because now , it involves our sole decision to decide the best of our lives .

wahai pakcikmakcik JPA dan sesiapa sahajalah berkaitan;
bontot saya dh penat bersantai di rumah , kaki saya dah kejang nak meronggeng lagi.dan dan otak saya dah berkarat nee.

ps;

dear ALLAH , i know that you plan the best for each of us , and i hope&pray that i will get the best of it from you as well. amiinn (:
sebab saya gelisah hati yang amat, sangat lah cuak.huhu

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